I'm always trying to find new things to release the negative energy that I have inside. I'm a big fan of spinning now at the gym, and recently have decided to try to get into running. I definitely am not going to run a half marathon anytime soon, but there's something about running a few miles with some upbeat music that gets my mind to release the toxins.
Yesterday I decided to go for a run in the morning. I put my pink sneakers on, got my iTunes ready, and was going to sparkle. One of the playlist I had made is called "syds mix" there are only a few songs on it, but they are recent songs that make me think of Sydney: most of them are played at spinning each week so it helps me push myself.
As I left my driveway I said to myself I'm going to do this. I'm going to run for Sydney- a few miles for Syd.
As I hit the 1.5 mile mark I said I'm not going to give up...I had to push myself for Syd, and she wouldn't let me quit. As I hit 2.5 miles my legs began to feel like jello, but I turned the corner of my house, and saw Sydneys garden. I blew a kiss to the sky, put on a great song ( Flo-Rida- How I feel) and I continued on my way. As tough as it was I kept my legs going and didn't want to give up. I was going to run 3 miles a goal that I had set for myself. I let my mind go to the music, and concentrated on the goal- miles for Syd. I turned back down the street and finished my run. I had hit 3 miles. This is something I havent done for many years.
I was so proud of myself for not giving up, and know that Sydney was watching over me, as I took every step for her.
Things are not easy lately, and I'm sure they won't be for awhile, but yesterday's goal was something that I was happy I accomplished.
Running and spinning is great for my mind, and heart. When my legs say I can't do it anymore I know I'm running with my heart, and for Sydney every mile I go.
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