Where did my sparkle go?

Yesterday was one of those rare days when I fell apart. I felt like I couldn't go on anymore, and that my heart was going to come out of my chest. The pain was more than I could handle as I pulled up to her area, called one of my best friends, and cried and cried and cried, until I couldn't catch my breath. 

I remember her saying, "Heather breathe", and I took a deep breath, and said, "I can't do this anymore"? At the moment the pain was unbearable, but I was just crying out my emotions. Somedays I just have these moments, and somedays I'm just real. This is me- A grieving mother who lost her daughter 6 months ago. It's only normal for me to have a day like yesterday.