Is this really fair?

As everyone gets ready to dress up their children in Halloween costumes this Saturday I can't help but have a heavy heart, as I wish Syd was here. Yes, dressing Logan up will be very special, and we will remember Syd as much as we can, but it's just not fair. 

A teacher came up to me yesterday and pretty much expressed how unfair this is, and that she should still be here. My response; "No kidding". I should be playing dress up with her on Saturday, and then taking both Logan and Sydney out for Halloween...not taking one out and then visiting Sydneys area.

Again it's just not fair and it bothers me each day, and probably ALWAYS will!!!