Not sugar coating it

Can I say it without sugar coating it? Here it goes...it just plain sucks!!! To wake up every morning knowing that Sydney is gone. Life is going on one day at a time, but it's often hard to focus moving forward when the pain is bigger then you can handle or imagine. Try waking up every morning with hormones that are raging and a heart that's aching. I stare at her picture constantly, and still can't figure out how this is even possible. It's taken me awhile to shout out my feelings that hide inside. I know I'll be alright because I've come this far, but it's just not fair. I'll be saying this forever. Look at her picture above and tell me how is it fair that she's gone?