With all the hustle and bustle of finishing things up for Maddox, and getting ready to go back to school I didn't notice until recently that the "sparkle" has been quiet. What does that mean? Well, it means that I haven't seen many signs of Sydney. I walked outside yesterday into her garden, and was pretty disappointed as the weeds have grown on one side, and it's just not up to par as it was last year. It didn't help that it's been one of the hottest summers, and it was very hard weeding her area pregnant. I actually thought that she could be a little disappointed in me? It's kind of a weird thing to think of, but then I justify myself, and say, "she must understand I'm doing a lot". As time has gone on I still look everyday for a sign: a little movement of the red truck, a butterfly flying by, or a comment made from Logan. Life as we know it is going to be changing again, and I hope Sydney knows that "we will never forget her". Im actually hoping that she's holding all her sparkle to come out when Maddox gets here. These feelings are real, and that's why I have to get them out. I am sure there will be a Sydney sign soon, but just want her to know that we are ALWAYS thinking of her.
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